TheInBetween

so, here i am, sitting in my best friends house on the couch. We just got back from another bff’s graduation. A friend of ours is telling us all about her wedding plans. how fun… but is that what it’s all about? either i graduate, get married, or both? Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for both. but is that what makes me successful? why is it that the world makes you think that? or is it me? is it just me that feels like society is driving me to get married and graduate from college? ok, really, i think it’s amazing that my friend graduated. I’m so proud of her. And my friends getting married, of course i’m happy for them. I can’t wait to get married. but honestly, who says i have to? who said i have to graduate? i went to college for two years and i hated it. i’m not saying i’ll never go back to school, maybe someday i’ll want to. But as of right now, i’m happy. No i don’t have the best job in the world, and i don’t make the best money. but who cares? is that what makes a person happy? a great job, a great husband, and money? um, i’m sorry but for me the answer is hell no. yes i want those things, but i refuse to base my happiness on them. i want to be happy for the person i am, for the things that i’ve done, for the relationships i’ve built. THAT is what defines me. If i’m not happy with my circumstance i’ll never be happy period.      

funny thing, my friends and i played M.A.S.H. today. you know the game that determines who you’ll marry, your job, how many kids you’ll have, and what kind of car you’ll drive. is that really what we were doing as kids? those were our hopes and dreams? i remember getting so mad when i would marry the wrong guy. (we always played 2 good options, 1 really bad option) it was torture waiting to see the outcome…  I’m never going to let my children play M.A.S.H.  

  giving a homeless guy food makes me happy, reminding my boss, everyday, that God loves him makes me happy, building a stronger relationship with my boyfriend makes me happy, forgiving someone makes me happy, loving Jesus with all my heart makes me happy. screw circumstance.   

HAPPINESS? 

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